moving

i used to hate moving.  it made me nervous.  what was to come?  would i find a place i would enjoy just existing as much as i did in that special place here?  would it be hot in the summer and cold in the winter?  was there a gas stove? did i get a window with sun?

as i move more and more i find that i’m looking for different things.  and that there are certain things that i need to make a place feel as though i’m living there.  now i hope for a microwave and a fridge.  a good size bathtub.  a wireless internet connection.  a cloths rack and a dresser.

what makes it home? the lappy, the mobile/cell/handy, my nalgene bottle, the book i’m currently reading, my wallet, a real mug, and real cup.

there are some comfort things too. my ds; some mash, simpsons, monty python; knitting; digital camera, nice undies; shoes.

strange that so few things are all i really need, but i go around with a car filled to the brim with stuff.  i guess some of it comes from stuff i actually need, but don’t want.  cloths and gear for work.  a horrible printer, stuff i feel bad throwing away, but don’t want.  i wish i was less attached to things.

but then i wonder, if i’m not attached to anything, then what am i doing? i’m attached to the boy, some friends, the world’s best cat.  yet, i’m near none of them.  if i don’t have people i care about and i don’t have things, then what am i doing.  i’m just existing in a void.  it’s rather isolating.  and metaphysically confusing.

but then, perhaps it’s just late and i’m tired and spending yet another night alone.  i’m glad i’ve been doing this for almost a year, and will continue to do so for probably several more.

at least i’ve acomplished some things.

-i found a picture that uses an imac in a cisco course

- i’ve been getting 90’s on my tests.

-i haven’t had to study

-several baby hats

and now.  pics of the baby hats.  people keep having kids.  who knows.

i think that’s all for now.

yea.

~ by lapawlow on Saturday, 21 June, 2008.